I don’t know what it is.just wrote something.read it!
I had my grudges against you
you made stories,
But life is like that,
You don’t have to care
you listened to me sometimes,
You became my solutions
sometimes,I think,what it takes to be you,
talking to the jerks
I wonder,if you could trust me
But that would be too good to be true
Love is underrated and overstated,
But,I wish you love my friend
Have a nice life!
four ever
Oh your smiles,your silent laughs
and your big black eyes
Your four days of oblivion ‘ld be the promise forever
You don’t know,you won’t believe
Oh,you don’t have a clue
Your four words in the mail ‘ld be my bible forever
You made me laugh,you made me cry,
girl,you made my life
your four notes of silence ‘ld be my symphony forever
you gave me thoughts,you gave me dreams
hell!you gave me hope
your four drops of wine and I ‘ld be sober forever
you are so beautiful,you are so nice
dear god!you are so kind
for her four moments of humanity ‘ld be the divinity forever
I know,it’s too early ,yeah,it’s just been days
But why make make it so complicated
Invisible
Every evening when I wake up,
I don’t care about the sun nor the moon,
Oh, hell! I give a damn about the clock,
My sun glows on me,
bright and uncomforting and,
I look for you,any of your signs.
You are here and you are not
I see you and you don’t,
oh yeah! Chores could wait
and so could my hunger,
for I need to talk to you.
My hands shiver,
My lips go dry,
Oh,a rush of blood to my head,
I have a killing sensation
I need to calm down,
May be you are working,
Yeah,Yes, you are busy
But so happy you are
and you have your fireworks,
that I am turning invisible
in the smokes of your joy
Frightened I am that you would break it,
But,wait...what would you break…
No,no,may be I need to kickstart,
Eat,laugh,talk,feel sane
But some part of me is still stuck,
Two things that we come across everyday.
But how different they are from each other,a lot.
In fact,I read somewhere that admiration is the antonym of envy.though it didn’t convince me but any way they are different.
Alright,the thing is these two words have been troubling me since quite some time.
This is what I have to say-
Everyone here has some qualities or talents or you know, something that makes him/her stand out in a crowd.now, let’s assume there are three persons A,B and C.
Both A and B have got talent for singing,exceptional talent at that.
Now Mr. C who is well acquainted with the above two persons sees things a little differently.
He admires B .the singer is like a god to him,gifted and everything.
But when it comes to C , he is envious of his talent.he thinks how that person can do that when he can’t.he doesn’t praise him ,likes to hurt him,insult him for no specific reasons.he deprives him of that one word of appreciation that he deserves and dies for.
Why is that?
The reason for this disparity may be personal but for same cases but, I have seen and I am sure, you have too that at times it’s just like that,there is no reason to it.
But then, envy is a deep thing.envy means, sometimes, you have to make yourself convince that the other man is no better than you and you refuse to accept his genius.so,in a way, you think of him as a pretender and thus deserves your flak.
But that again, is one way of seeing or feeling it.
It may sound silly but it’s like a puzzle to me these days.
If you are reading,I ‘ld like to know what you think about this.
Hope I stand corrected some day soon!
it's been really some time since my first post.
i had promised myself that i'ld be more frequent with my posts but things didn't work out,i don't know why.
but all these days what i 've been doing is just three things,sleeping,eating and watching movies(not necessarily in that order).
if you are thinking that may be, rest of the things that everyone does need not be mentioned and that's why i skipped writing them then, put an end to your imagination.
i like thinking in absolute terms and have completely avoided the boring daily chores.
Yeah, I know, I stink, but that’s my friends’ problem and they have got used to it long time ago, thanks to my contribution towards spicing up their boring moronic lives.
Since I have nothing to talk about,I ‘ld rather talk about what cinema has been treating me to these days.i got to watch some really awe- inspiring movies and may like to tell you guys something about them.let’s start with a winner,a very special piece of art called ‘Philadelphia’.
It was one of those movies that I have been dieing to watch and it was completely worth it.
It deals with the subject of AIDS and most importantly homosexuality with utmost sensitivity.
It is really something life-altering as you get to see all the pain and suffering through the eyes of a man who is dieing everyday and yet is determined to prove to you that he is as normal as you all are and deserves the same compassion and love.you also see a lawyer who is pretty traditional about his attitude towards gays but changing all the way through his journey towards winning his client a justice well deserved.tom hanks and denzel washington just blew me away.their acting was out of the world to say the least.i could not sleep right after and kept thinking as tom hanks’ eyes kept bothering me all night.i ‘ld sincerely ask each one of you to watch the movie.i later learnt that it is being used as a medium to create awareness about some really important issues.
Next on my list is ‘The motorcycle diaries’.this is a latin american movie which is an academy award winner as well.it is a cinematic adaptation of the the early life of the greatest revolutionary of all times ’ernesto che guevara’.we all must have seen numerous posters and t-shirts bearing his famous uncannily bearded face but it’s really touching when you experience what made him what he was.
This journey that he embarked upon way back in 1952 with his flamboyant friend alberto on a rickety bike La Poderosa across south america changed him forever.at that time,he was just 23 and studying medicine.
After seeing the world closely , suffering through a lot of hardship and meeting numerous people all over and observing their struggle with life,the only thing he managed to say was ‘so much injustice’ and may be that summed it all.after his journey ended,what he did is just history.so,it sort of shaped his life.
I could just go on and on but this is getting really big so I would rather stop here.
See you later!
people,this is my first post,
waited and thought for like ages about that one thing which i would write here to announce my arrival as a big-shot but it however didn't come through.
in fact,it was this ponder and wait that prompted me to write this post.
why could not i start,bcoz may be i was being too careful,or may be too much of a perfectionist.........or whatever but perhaps....now i have got the much needed answer to it.
the answer is i m ordinary.
i am no different from people whom i see everyday on the streets,in theatres,on the railway platform,at my favourite dhaba,in my college and may be even in my classroom.
this is not a revelation.it is no news perhaps for many of you guys but i don't know why it seems so sudden and shocking to me.
The reason for it may be that, since I was a kid I have made myself believe that I am a class above the rest but somehow as it has turned out,my einstein was just a wannabe scientist.But then the question that arises is that,should I judge myself on one little show of mediocrity.
May be not but at least 10 other reasons could suffice that I am run of the mill stuff .
so here I am,on an in-depth analysis;-
1.becoz I don’t smoke,don’t drink and can’t hold (let alone play) guitar for nuts!
This is rather funny but I think these are the most extraordinary traits I possess since I feel, today everyone(yeah,I mean it!) can do the above things.but plz don’t get me wrong,I m no saint or anything.its just that I tried to endorse the habits but may be was not man enough or whatever,I didn’t quite like the taste.
2.bcoz ,I make an effort not to listen to the lectures and rather talk about tom hanks just to look cool enough.
3.bcoz,I act like being an authority on any sport other than cricket in any crowd just to impress people.
4.bcoz,I am really very sorry that I tried and tried but could not create a place in my heart for heavy metal or rock.its really pathetic but I don’t love cobain or led zepp. our desi musicians seem to be much more ear pleasing and soothing.its really very tacky but can’t help it.
5.bcoz although himesh reshammiya sucks to say the least,but could not resist myself ending up liking some of his tunes. If u r tolerant enough,I could even confess liking some Bhojpuri tunes .i understand,I really do,that, it’s like an offence,something illegal, but pardon me.
6.bcoz although I can talk at length about economic meltdown,the recession,globalization eveyting but I still really don’t like reading stuff like ECONOMIC TIMES and business mags.its a shame but please don’t even expect me to know enough, even about stocks.
7.bcoz I have watched enough Hollywood flicks to last lifetime but still don’t seem to get over over our khans and kumars trash.
8.bcoz although I insist on saying that all the girls here are good for nothing,I secretely have a crush on a couple of them.
9.bcoz I like to cook up stories just to prove my heroics and end up sounding stupid most of the times.
10.bcoz althrough this post I have been hell-a- lot careful and eager to show my skills but, ended up writing crap!
